of Drusus: and the latter have never been regarded as on a level with them. Believe me, I am actuated by a single motive, as to which I know that I am infatuated. But pray continue as before to indulge my aberration. You talk about a "solace for my old age": that is all over and done with; my objects now are quite different.
DLXI (A XII, 26)
TO ATTICUS (AT ROME)
Astura, 22 March
Sicca says in his letter that, even if he has not concluded
the business with Aulus Silius, he is coming to me on the
23rd. Your engagements are sufficient excuse in my eyes,
for I know what they are. Of your wish to be with me, or
rather your strong desire and yearning, I feel no doubt.
You mention Nicias:[1] if I were in a frame of mind to enjoy
his cultivated conversation, there is no one whom I would
have preferred to have with me. But solitude and retirement
are now my proper sphere. And it was because Sicca
is likely to be content with them, that I am the more looking
forward to his visit. Besides, you know how delicate
our friend Nicias is, how particular about his comforts and
his habitual diet. Why should I consent to be a nuisance
to him, when I am not in a state of mind to receive any
pleasure from him? However, I am gratified by his wish.
Your letter was all on one subject,[2] as to which I have
resolved to make no answer. For I hope I have obtained
your consent to relieve me of that vexation. Love to Pilia
and Attica.
