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ſent me to ſtate to you the conditions on which he will receive you as his child again, and forgive you all your paſt diſgraceful folly: which ſhall not once be mentioned againſt you. And in caſe you comply, you muſt return to the church from whence you have revolted, and confeſs your ſins in revolting as you have, and renounce your frantic notions of witchcraft and Chriſtianity, as you call it; and you ſhall become my beloved daughter; but if not you muſt expect nothing from me, not even to own you as a daughter; for I am determined to diſown you in caſe of your obſtinacy. I told the gentleman, that it was impoſſible that he ſhould diſown me, for his name was on his record with the reſt of his children, and alſo my looks ſo favoured his, that all who ſaw us would know for a certainty that I was really his child. But notwithſtanding all my confidence, I conſidered that I muſt of neceſſity leave that place ſoon, for my money was now almoſt ſpent, and where to flee I did not know. being deſtitute of any Chriſtian friends there, the which put me in mind of Nicodemus, who followed his Lord by night. But ſtill I had great trouble of mind: I the rather feared that I was like Judas, who denied and betrayed his Lord for filthy lucre's ſake, that is, in conſideration of the temptation that I before ſpake of, concerning my going back to the Romiſh church with a lie in my mouth, the notwithſtanding I thought to ſerve my God