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and for outward things, he was never rich (and although, when in Killinchie, he had not above four pounds Sterling of stipends a-year) yet he was never in want.
He further observes, That he could not remember any particular tine of conversion, or that he was much cast down, or lifted up: only one night; in the Dean of Kilmarnock, having been most of the day before, in company with some people of Stuarton, who were under rare and sacred exercise of mind; he lay down under some heaviness, that he never had such experience of; but, in the midst of his sleep there came such a terror of the wrath of God upon him, that if it had but increased a little higher, or continued but a few minutes longer, he had been in a most dreadful condition! but it was instantly removed, and he thought it was said within his heart, See what a fool thou art, to desire the thing thou couldst not endure.
In his preaching he was sometimes much deserted and cast down; and again, at other times, tolerably assisted: He himself declares. That he never preached a sermon excepting two, that he would be earnest to see again in print; the first was at the Kirk of Shots (as was already noticed) andthe
