"And maybe they haven't a chance to get out."
Lilly was silent a moment. Then he said:
"Well, I didn't make life and society. I can only go my own way."
Aaron too was silent. A deep disappointment was settling over his spirit.
"Will you be alone all winter?"
"Just myself and Tanny," he answered. "But people always turn up."
"And then next year, what will you do?"
"Who knows? I may sail far off. I should like to. I should like to try quite a new life-mode. This is finished in me—and yet perhaps it is absurd to go further. I'm rather sick of seekers. I hate a seeker."
"What," said Aaron rather sarcastically—"those who are looking for a new religion?"
"Religion—and love—and all that. It's a disease now."
"Oh, I don't know," said Aaron. "Perhaps the lack of love and religion is the disease."
"Ah—bah! The grinding the old millstones of love and God is what ails us, when there's no more grist between the stones. We've ground love very small. Time to forget it. Forget the very words religion, and God, and love—then have a shot at a new mode. But the very words rivet us down and don't let us move. Rivets, and we can't get them out."
"And where should we be if we could?" said Aaron.
"We might begin to be ourselves, anyhow."
"And what does that mean?" said Aaron. "Being yourself—what does it mean?"
"To me, everything."
"And to most folks, nothing. They've got to have a goal."
"There is no goal. I loathe goals more than any other impertinence. Gaols, they are. Bah—jails and jailers, gaols and gaolers"
"Wherever you go, you'll find people with their noses tied to some goal," said Aaron.
"Their wagon hitched to a star—which goes round and round like an ass in a gin," laughed Lilly. "Be damned to it."
