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inſtructing rods! How many leſsons of Chriſtianity are to be learned under thy rodǃ So much comfort and conſolation is to be found quitely and calmly acquieſcing to his will, that I may ſay, I ſhall never have ſuch contentedneſs, were I to be inheritor of the whole world, as I had under the sweet croſs of Chriſt. O praiſes! praiſes to him who made it ſoǃ———But with what a heavy heart did I come out of that Caſtle of Blackneſsǃ The Lord did give me ſuch a tight of the intricate diſpenſations that the Church was to meet with, by the coming of the Prince of Orange, that inſtead of being compaſt about with ſongs of deliverance, it was attended with great heavineſs: I could take pleaſure in nothing, but mourning over the ſad things I ſaw coming on the Church. When others were rejoicing, I durſt not make mention of my diſconſolate caſe. When they ſpake preferment to my family, it was as a ſword to my heart, I cried, and the Lord heard me in that; and inſtead of that, he gave me the aſsurance of the ſalvation of my dear child William, and gave me full ſubmiſsion to his sickneſs, which I could never win to before — accompained with many ſweet melting days, which was to me an inexpreſsible mercy. Oh, thenǃ what did I ſee next? The work of God betrayed, not by enemies, nor by that party only that had sitten at their eaſe, but by thoſe miniſters and
