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honour. Praiſe be to thee, whoſe care of me was ſuch that it was miniſters who were valiant for Chriſt that he ſent in my way; ſuch as did not flatter me in my sin, but faithfully and freely did hold out in the goſpel what was sin and what was duty, and ſealed the ſame with their blood How didſt thou encourage me with many ſweet anſwers of prayers to confirm me in thy love. Thou didſt help me in the days of thy love to me, to make a full resignation of all that was mine unto thee. When I was put out of all, ſtripped bare and deſtitute, not knowing of ſhelter to me and my poor babes, how calmly and quietly didſt thou help me to go under it! ſo that I was made to fear that it was ſtupidity, and not ſupporting grace. And ſuch was thy love, that even in that thou would not let me go without reproof; for there was a friend ſuffered to wrong me in a busineſs, and the Lord withdrew, and then I was as a bullock unaccuſtomed to the yoke; I could not get it borne, until I mourned for my folly, in thinking that nature could do any thing in me without aſsiſting grace: then he helped me to make a full resignation anew of all that was mine, and to look beyond all earthly portions unto that noble inheritance which thou haſt purchaſed with thine own blood, and gave me a full contentedneſs in all no ſufferings, both from friends and foes,
