peacefully—not so stormily as you. See here now—if you had only been born a woman, why, I would have married you! I have told you that often; and then you only would be the mother of my children. So—why not be now at least their uncle? You are so kind—so good to me!… Will you not still be so?" He spoke all this in so gentle a voice, the expression in his saddened face was so beseeching and so honest, that I was utterly overcome. I covered his-hand with kisses. I said that he was free. I renounced him for ever. His children will be my heirs."
Whether pictured by merely romance or in sad fact, such episodes warn Uranians who allow their hearts to be bound-up in the affection for a much younger man; for that growing, hesitating nature which presently may swing wholly away from an immature sexual anchorage. The noble-minded type of Uranian knows that the young deserter has every right on his side. So admitting, he may accept the blow in silence; but also in an anguish never to pass away.
Here are typical examples of dramas—one in America, the other in Germany—because of passionate sensibility to the barrier and separation that must occur through marriage:
"No further explanation is given out of the suicide of Mr. C— R— which was mentioned here yesterday as a shock to a very wide circle of business and personal friends, on Sunday morning. The affairs of the deceased are all in good order, and there is lacking as yet a clue to sentimental motives …… The body was cremated yesterday at the F— P— Crematory, in accordance with the often-expressed wish of the dead young man, repeated in the note found beside his body. It is a sad coincidence that at the wedding of his most intimate friend, Mr. W— F— of this city, last month, at which he was best-man, Mr. R— remarked in joke to several friends that "he never could survive W—'s marriage" … The latter cannot mention any reason for the fatal shot, unless that lately Mr. S— has been very nervous at times. He states that the letter that the deceased wrote to him contains nothing worth communicating. He says there is no ground for reports that an affair with a person of the opposite sex was the motive. This he says he knows, and he wishes some reports to the contrary positively contradicted."
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