ruined everything; but I sat in grave indifference, though the effort made my heart palpitate most painfully. Dr. Webster, who had perhaps the most trying position, behaved admirably.
November 24.—To-day the Doctor read my note to the class. In this note I told him that I was there as a student with an earnest purpose, and as a student simply I should be regarded; that the study of anatomy was a most serious one, exciting profound reverence, and the suggestion to absent myself from any lectures seemed to me a grave mistake. I did not wish to do so, but would yield to any wish of the class without hesitation, if it was their desire. I stayed in the ante-room whilst the note was being read. I listened joyfully to the very hearty approbation with which it was received by the class, and then entered the amphitheatre and quietly resumed my place. The Doctor told me he felt quite relieved.
No further difficulty ever afterwards occurred.
December 4.—Dr. Webster sent for me to examine a
case of a poor woman at his rooms. 'Twas a horrible
exposure; indecent for any poor woman to be subjected
to such a torture; she seemed to feel it, poor and ignorant
as she was. I felt more than ever the necessity of my
mission. But I went home out of spirits, I hardly know
why. I felt alone. I must work by myself all life long.
Christmas Day.—Bright and gay with sleighs. The lake looks most beautiful, the mist rising from it in arches, the sky a brilliant blue, and the ground covered with snow. I received my Christmas Annual with great joy; and having purchased 25 cents' worth of almonds and raisins, I had quite a cosy time reading it.
Sunday, January 16.—A most beautiful day; it did me good. The text impressed itself on me—'Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on Thee.' I
