THE DARK CHAMBER
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ceaseless has been my weeping all the way." I shall at least have this pride in me when I meet him.
Surangama
But even that pride will not last. He came before you did—who else could have sent you on the road?
Sudarshana
Perhaps he did. As long as a sense of offended pride remained with me, I could not help thinking that he had left me for good; but when I flung my dignity and pride to the winds and came out on the common streets, then it seemed to me that he too had come out: I have been finding him since the moment I was on the road. I have no misgivings now. All this suffering that I have gone through for his sake, the very bitternesss of all this is giving me his company. Ah!
