B.C. 45, ÆT. 61 and plunging into a dense and wild wood early in the day I don't leave it till evening. Next to you, I have no greater friend than solitude. In it my one and only conversation is with books. Even that is interrupted by tears, which I fight against as long as I can. But as yet I am not equal to it. I will answer Brutus, as you advise. You will get the letter to-morrow. Whenever you have anyone to take it write me a letter.
DXLVII (A XII, 16)
TO ATTICUS (AT ROME)
Astura (10 March)
I don't wish you to come to me to the neglect of your business.
Rather I will come to you, if you are kept much
longer. And yet I should never have gone so far as to quit
your sight, had it not been that I was getting absolutely no
relief from anything. But if any alleviation had been possible,
it would have been in you alone, and as soon as it will be
possible from anyone, it will be from you. Yet at this very
moment I cannot stand being without you. But to stay at
your town house was not thought proper, and it was impossible
at mine; nor, if I had stopped at some place nearer
Rome, should I have been with you after all. For the same
reason would have hindered you from being with me, as
hinders you now. As yet nothing suits me better than this
solitude, which I fear Philippus[1] will destroy: for he arrived
at his villa yesterday evening. Writing and study do not
soften my feelings, they only distract them.
- ↑ L. Marcius Philippus, step-father of Augustus. See p. 313.
