MY UTOPIAN SELF
"I'm certain I saw her. Certain. She was far away across those gardens near here—and before I had recovered from my amazement she had gone! But it was Mary."
He takes my arm. "You know I did not understand this," he says. "I did not really understand that when you said Utopia, you meant I was to meet her—in happiness."
"I didn't."
"It works out at that."
"You haven't met her yet."
"I shall. It makes everything different. To tell you the truth I've rather hated this Utopia of yours at times. You mustn't mind my saying it, but there's something of the Gradgrind———"
Probably I should swear at that.
"What?" he says.
"Nothing."
"But you spoke?"
"I was purring. I'm a Gradgrind—it's quite right—anything you can say about Herbert Spencer, vivisectors, materialistic Science or Atheists, applies without correction to me. Begbie away! But now you think better of a modern Utopia? Was the lady looking well?"
"It was her real self. Yes. Not the broken woman I met—in the real world."
"And as though she was pining for you."
He looks puzzled.
"Look there!" I say.
He looks.
We are standing high above the ground in the
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