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such an order ever emanated from the lips of the gentle, woman-loving Christ. However, the Church imposes the obligation under pain of mortal sin, and I do not doubt that some of my perplexed colleagues will see in that sin the reason of the withdrawal of the light of faith from me. In any case the whole institution had become profoundly hateful and repulsive to me, and I eagerly embraced an opportunity to escape from it soon after I had commenced, by a course of study at Louvain University.