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JENNY
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"Helge—my own darling boy."

He raised his head and pushed her gently away from him: "Jenny, that time in Rome I could have made you mine—you wanted it yourself, for you believed that we could only find happiness in a life together. I was not so sure, I suppose, as I did not risk it. But here at home I have been wanting you more than ever. I wanted you to be mine entirely, for I was afraid of losing you, but I saw you were frightened every time you understood that I was longing for you."

She looked at him in awe. Yes, he was right—she had not wished to admit it, but it was so.

"If I asked you now—this moment—would you consent?"

Jenny moved her lips; then came a quick and firm "Yes."

Helge smiled sadly, kissing her hand: "Gladly, because you wish to be mine? Because you cannot conceive of any happiness unless you are mine and I am yours? Not only because you want to be kind to me or don't want to break your word—tell me the truth."

She threw herself down on his knee and sobbed: "Let me go away for a time. I want to go up in the mountains. I must recover myself. I want to be your Jenny, as I was in Rome. I do want it, Helge, but I am so confused now. When I am myself again I will write you to come, and I will be your own Jenny again—yours only."

"I am my mother's son," said Helge quietly. "We have got estranged from one another. Will you not convince me that I am everything in the world to you, the only man, more than anything else?—more than your work and your friends, to whom I felt you belonged more than to me—just as you feel a stranger among the people I belong to."

"I did not feel a stranger towards your father."

"No, but my father and I are strangers to one another. There is one interest—your work—which I cannot share with you completely, and I know now that I should be jealous