The Complete Works of Swami Vivekananda/Volume 5/Epistles - First Series/LVI Sister
LVI
New York,
10th February, 1896.
Dear Sister,[1]
I was astonished at learning that you have not received my letter yet. I
wrote immediately after the receipt of yours and also sent you some booklets
of three lectures I delivered in New York. These Sunday public lectures are
now taken down in shorthand and printed. Three of them made two little
pamphlets, several copies of which I have forwarded to you. I shall be in
New York two weeks more, and then I go to Detroit to come back to Boston
felt a week or two.
My health is very much broken down this year by constant work. I am very
nervous. I have not slept a single night soundly this winter. I am sure I am
working too much, yet a big work awaits me in England.
I will have to go through it, and then I hope to reach India and have a rest
all the rest of my life. I hale tried at least to do my best for the world,
leaving the result to the Lord. Now I am longing for rest. Hope I will get
some, and the Indian people will give me up. How I would like to become dumb
for some years and not talk at all! I was not made for these struggles and
fights of the world. I am naturally dreamy and restful. I am a born
idealist, can only live in a world of dreams; the very touch of fact
disturbs my visions arid makes me unhappy. They, will be done!
I am ever ever grateful to you four sisters; to you I owe everything I have
in this country. May you be ever blessed and happy. Wherever I be, you will
always be remembered with the deepest gratitude and sincerest love. The
whole life is a succession of dreams. My ambition is to be a conscious
dreamer, that is all. My love to all — to Sister Josephine.
Ever your affectionate brother,
Vivekananda.
- Notes
- ↑ Miss Mary Hale.