The Complete Works of Swami Vivekananda/Volume 8/Epistles - Fourth Series/CLII Dhira Mata
CLII
To Mrs. Ole Bull
921 W. 21ST STREET,
LOS ANGELES,
27th December, 1899.
BELOVED DHIRA MATA,
An eventful and happy New Year to you and many such returns!
I am much better in health — able enough to work once more. I have started
work already and have sent to Saradananda some money — Rs. 1,300 already —
as expenses for the law suit. I shall send more, if they need it. I had a
very bad dream this morning and had not any news of Saradananda for three
weeks. Poor boys! How hard I am on them at times. Well, they know, in spite
of all that, I am their best friend.
Mr. Leggett has got a little over £500 I had with Sturdy on account of Raja-Yoga and the Maharaja of Khetri. I have now about a thousand dollars with Mr. Leggett. If I die, kindly send that money to my mother. I wired to the boys three weeks ago that I was perfectly cured. If I don't get any worse, this much health as I have now will do well enough. Do not worry at all on my account; I am up and working with a will.
I am sorry I could not write any more of the stories. I have written some other things and mean to write something almost every day.
I am very much more peaceful and find that the only way to keep my peace is
to teach others. Work is my only safety valve.
I only want some clear business head to take care of the details as I push
onwards and work on. I am afraid it will be a long time to find such in
India, and if there are any, they ought to be educated by somebody from the
West.
Again, I can only work when thrown completely on my own feet. I am at my best when I am alone. Mother seems to arrange so. Joe believes great things are brewing — in Mother's cup; hope it is so.
Joe and Margot have developed into actual prophets, it seems. I can only say, every blow I had in this life, every pang, will only become joyful sacrifice if Mother becomes propitious to India once more.
Miss Greenstidel writes a beautiful letter to me, about you most of it. She
thinks a lot about Turiyananda too. Give Turiyananda my love. I am sure he
will work well. He has the pluck and stamina.
I am going soon to work in California; when I leave I shall send for
Turiyananda and make him work on the Pacific coast. I am sure here is a
great field. The Raja-Yoga book seems to be very well known here. Miss
Greenstidel had found great peace under your roof and is very happy. I am so
glad it is so. May things go a little better with her every day. She has a
good business head and practical sense.
Joe has unearthed a magnetic healing woman. We are both under her treatment. Joe thinks she is pulling me up splendidly. On her has been worked a miracle, she claims. Whether it is magnetic healing, California ozone, or the end of the present spell of bad Karma, I am improving. It is a great thing to be able to walk three miles, even after a heavy dinner.
All love and blessings to Olea. My love to Dr. Janes and other Boston
friends.
Ever your son,
VIVEKANANDA.