What Maisie Knew (Chicago & New York: Herbert S. Stone & Co., 1897)/Chapter 27
XXVII
The greatest wonder of all was the way the announcement, so far as could be judged, was launched predominantly at Mrs. Wix, who, as if from sudden failure of strength, sank into a chair while Maisie surrendered to the visitor's embrace. As soon as the child was liberated she met, with profundity, Mrs. Wix's stupefaction and actually was able to see that, while in a manner sustaining the encounter, her face yet seemed with intensity to say: "Now, for God's sake, don't crow 'I told you so!'" Maisie was somehow on the spot aware of an absence of disposition to crow; it had taken her but an extra minute to arrive at such a quick survey of the objects surrounding Mrs. Beale as showed that among them was no appurtenance of Sir Claude's. She knew his dressing-bag now—oh, with the fondest knowledge!—and there was an instant during which its not being there was a stroke of the worst news. She was yet to learn what it could be to recognize in some perception of a gap the sign of extinction, and therefore remained unaware that this momentary pang was a foretaste of the experience of death. It passed in a flash, of course, with Mrs. Beale's brightness and with her own instant appeal. "You 've come alone?"
"Without Sir Claude?" Strangely, Mrs. Beale looked even brighter. "Yes; in the eagerness to get at you. You abominable little villain!"—and her stepmother, laughing clear, administered to her cheek a pat that was partly a pinch. "What were you up to and what did you take me for? But I 'm glad to be abroad, and, after all, it 's you who have shown me the way. I might n't, without you, have been able to come; that is, so soon. Well, here I am, at any rate, and in a moment more I should have begun to worry about you. This will do very well"—she was good-natured about the place and presently added that it was nice and Frenchy. But with a rosier glow she made again her great point: "I 'm free, I 'm free!" Maisie made, on her side, her own: she carried back her gaze to Mrs. Wix, whom amazement continued to hold; she drew, afresh, her old friend's attention to the superior way she did n't take that up. What she did take up, the next minute, was the question of Sir Claude. "Where is he? Won't he come?"
Mrs. Beale's consideration of this oscillated, with a smile, between the two expectancies with which she was flanked: it was conspicuous, it was extraordinary, her unblinking acceptance of Mrs. Wix, a miracle of which Maisie had even now begun to read a reflection in that lady's long visage. "He 'll come, but we must make him!" she gayly brought forth.
"Make him?" Maisie echoed.
"We must give him time; we must play our cards. "
"But he promised us, awfully," Maisie replied.
"My dear child, he has promised me awfully; I mean lots of things, and not, in every case, kept his promise to the letter." Mrs. Beale's good humor insisted on taking for granted Mrs. Wix's, to whom her attention had suddenly grown prodigious. "I dare say he has done the same with you and not always come to time. But he makes it up in his own way; and it isn't as if we did n't know exactly what he is. There 's one thing he is," she went on, "which makes everything else only a question, for us, of tact. " They scarce had time to wonder what this was before it was, as they might have said right there. "He's as free as I am!"
"Yes, I know," said Maisie; as if, however, independently weighing the value of that. She really weighed also the oddity of her stepmother's treating it as news to her, who had been the first person, literally, to whom Sir Claude had mentioned it. For a few seconds, as if with the sound of it in her ears, she stood with him again, in memory and in the twilight, in the hotel garden at Folkestone.
Anything Mrs. Beale overlooked was, she indeed divined, but the effect of an exaltation of high spirits, a tendency to soar that showed even when she dropped—still quite impartially—almost to the confidential. "Well, then we 've only to wait. He can't do without us long. I 'm sure, Mrs. Wix, he can't do without you! He's devoted to you; he has told me so much about you. The extent I count on you, you know, count on you to help me!"—was an extent that even all her radiance could n't express. What it couldn't express, quite as much as what it could, made at any rate, every instant, her presence, and even her famous freedom, loom larger; and it was this mighty mass that once more led her companions, bewildered and scattered, to exchange with each other, as through a thickening veil, confused and ineffectual signs. They clung together, at least, on the common ground of unpreparedness, and Maisie watched without relief the havoc of wonder in Mrs. Wix. It had reduced her to perfect impotence, and, but that gloom was black upon her, she sat as if fascinated by Mrs. Beale's high style. It had plunged her into a long deep hush; for what had happened was the thing she had least allowed for and before which the particular rigor she had worked up could only grow limp and sick. Sir Claude was to have reappeared with his accomplice or without her; never, never his accomplice without him. Mrs. Beale had gained, apparently, by this time, an advantage she could pursue: she looked at the droll, dumb figure with jesting reproach. "You really won't shake hands with me? Never mind; you'll come round!" She put the matter to no test, going on immediately and, instead of offering her hand, making it, with a pretty gesture that her head bent to, reach a long pin that played a part in her back hair. "Are hats worn at luncheon? If you 're as hungry as I am we must go right down."
Mrs. Wix stuck fast, but she met the question in a voice her pupil scarce recognized. "I wear mine."
Mrs. Beale, swallowing at one glance her bran-new bravery, which she appeared at once to refer to its origin and to follow in its flights, accepted this as conclusive. "Oh, but I 've not such a beauty!" Then she turned rejoicingly to Maisie. "I 've got a beauty for you, my dear."
"A beauty?"
"A love of a hat—in my luggage. I remembered that"—she nodded at the object on her stepdaughter's head—"and I've brought you one with a peacock's breast. It's the most gorgeous blue!"
It was too strange, this talking with her there already not about Sir Claude, but about peacocks—too strange for the child to have the presence of mind to thank her. But the felicity in which she had arrived was so proof against everything that Maisie felt more and more the depth of the purpose that must underlie it. She had a vague sense of its being abysmal, the spirit with which Mrs. Beale carried off the awkwardness, in the white and gold salon, of such a want of breath and of welcome. Mrs. Wix was more breathless than ever; the embarrassment of Mrs. Beale's isolation was as nothing to the embarrassment of her grace. The perception of this dilemma was the germ, on the child's part, of a new question altogether. What if, with this indulgence—? But the idea lost itself in something too frightened for hope and too conjectured for fear; and while everything went by leaps and bounds one of the waiters stood at the door to remind them that the table d'hôte was half over.
"Had you come up to wash hands?" Mrs. Beale hereupon asked them. "Go and do it quickly, and I 'll be with you; they've put my boxes in that nice room—it was Sir Claude's. Trust him," she laughed, "to have a good one!" The door of a neighboring room stood open, and now, from the threshold, addressing herself again to Mrs. Wix, she sent a note flying that gave the very key of what, as she would have said, she was up to. "Dear lady, please attend to my daughter."
She was up to a change of deportment so complete that it represented—oh, for offices still honorably subordinate, if not too explicitly menial—an absolute coercion, an interested clutch, of the old woman's respectability. There was response, for Maisie's mind, I may say at once, in the jump of that respectability to its feet; it was itself capable of one of the leaps, one of the bounds just mentioned, and it carried its charge, with this momentum and while Mrs. Beale popped into Sir Claude's chamber, straight away to where, at the end of the passage, pupil and governess were quartered. The greatest stride of all, for that matter, was that within a few seconds the pupil had, in another relation, been converted into a daughter. Maisie's eyes were still following it when, after the rush, with the door almost slammed and no thought of soap and towels, the pair stood face to face. Mrs. Wix, in this position, was the first to gasp a sound. "Can it ever be that she has one?"
Maisie felt still more bewildered. "One what?"
"Why, moral sense."
They spoke as if you might have two, but Mrs. Wix looked as if it were not altogether a happy thought, and Maisie didn't see how even an affirmative from her own lips would clear up what had become most of a mystery. It was to this she sprang pretty straight. "Is she my mother now?"
It was a point as to which an horrific glimpse of the responsibility of an opinion appeared to affect Mrs. Wix like a blow in the stomach. She had evidently never thought of it; but she could think and rebound. "If she is, he's equally your father."
Maisie, however, thought further. "Then my father and my mother—!"
But she had already faltered and Mrs. Wix had already glared back. "Ought to live together? Don't begin it again!" She turned away with a groan, to reach the washing-stand, and Maisie could by this time recognize with a certain ease that that way, verily, madness did lie. Mrs. Wix gave a great untidy splash, but the next instant had faced round. "She has taken a new line."
"She was nice to you," Maisie concurred.
"What she thinks so—'Go and dress the young lady.' But it 's something!" she panted. Then she thought out the rest. "If he won't have her, why she 'll have you. She'll be the one."
"The one to keep me abroad?"
"The one to give you a home." Mrs. Wix saw further; she mastered all the portents. "Oh, she 's cruelly clever! It 's not a moral sense." She reached her climax. "It's a game!"
"A game?"
"Not to lose him. She has sacrificed him—to her duty."
"Then won't he come?" Maisie pleaded.
Mrs. Wix made no answer; her vision absorbed her. "He has fought. But she has won."
"Then won't he come?" the child repeated.
Mrs. Wix hesitated. "Yes, hang him!" She had never been so profane.
For all Maisie minded! "Soon—tomorrow?"
"Too soon—whenever. Indecently soon."
"But then we shall be together!" the child went on. It made Mrs. Wix look at her as if in exasperation; but nothing had time to come before she precipitated: "Together with you!" The air of criticism continued, but took voice only in her companion's bidding her wash herself and come down. The silence of quick ablutions fell upon them, presently broken, however, by one of Maisie's sudden reversions. "Mercy, isn't she handsome?"
Mrs. Wix had finished; she waited. "She'll attract attention." They were rapid, and it would have been noticed that the shock the beauty had given them acted, incongruously, as a positive spur to their preparations for rejoining her. She had, none the less, when they returned to the sitting-room, already descended; the open door of her room showed it empty, and the chambermaid explained. Here again they were delayed by another sharp thought of Mrs. Wix's. "But what will she live on meanwhile?"
Maisie stopped short. "Till Sir Claude comes?"
It was nothing to the violence with which her friend had been arrested. "Who 'll pay the bills?"
Maisie thought. "Can't she?"
"She? She has n't a penny."
The child wondered. "But did n't papa?"
"Leave her a fortune?" Mrs. Wix would have appeared to speak of papa as dead had she not immediately added: "Why, he lives on other women!"
Oh yes, Maisie remembered. "Then can't he send—?" She faltered again; even to herself it sounded queer.
"Some of their money to his wife?" Mrs. Wix gave a laugh still stranger than the weird suggestion. "I dare say she 'd take it!"
They hurried on again; yet again, on the stairs, Maisie pulled up. "Well, if she had stopped in England!" she threw out.
Mrs. Wix considered. "And he had come over instead?"
"Yes, as we expected." Maisie launched her speculation. "What, then, would she have lived on?"
Mrs. Wix hung fire but an instant. "On other men!" And she marched downstairs.