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opinion; and that he would, as I then thought delight to have me live with him. When I told my intentions to the brethren they told me, I need not go away on account of my being burthenſome to them, for they were willing I ſhould live with them as long as I wiſhed; that I need not regard their expence, for they had as willingly maintain me as their own children, for we are one, ſaid they; but ſtill, if I could not content myſelf to ſtay that they would help me the which they did I then thanked them, and took my leave. And as I rode off in a carriage the driver conducted very diſagreeably; I relented his conduct towards me, and as angry with him (the which gave me ſcruples.) Now was I filled with doubts concerning myſelf, and began to think I was not a Chriſtian at all, but a mere hypocrite, and had been trying to deceive myſelf and others; but I could not deceive God who knoweth all things I had thought I never ſhould be angry again, let what would happen to me. This gave me great anxiety of mind, which laſted for a conſiderable time. We at length however, arrived within three miles of my father's houſe, where I ſtopped, in hopes that my father would ſend for me to come home. But the next day my brother came to the houſe where I was, and the woman of the houſe ſaid to me, there's your brother. The reader can hardly inagine the joy I felt to ſee my brother again, whom I had not ſeen for many years. I thought he would re-
