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joice alſo to ſee me, and therefore went to meet him and reached out my hand to him as a token of friendſhip; but, ſhocking to relate, I ſaw in his face ſigns of diſapprobation; he frowned and ſtepped back; and refuſed to give his hand; and ſaid to me, My father ſays, you ſhall not enter his houſe, for you are a diſgrace to the whole family. He eſteems you as a runaway, and a deluded heretic. Theſe reflections from my brother, you may well think excited powerful ſenſations in my mind. To be thus diſowned by my own father and brother, and called a heretic; now came a fair trial of my faith and confidence in God. I concluded that the cauſe of their alienation of affection towards me, was becauſe I was a Chriſtian, and if ſo it would become me to act like Chriſt: who, when He was reviled, reviled not again; and when he was perſecuted, threatened not I think I can truly ſay, that all he ſaid to me. only ſerved to engage my ſoul to give glory to God that I was counted worthy to ſuffer for Chriſt's ſake, which I through grace was determined to do; but ſtill Satan tempted me to give up my determination to live devoted to God; I was almoſt tempted to go to my father and feign a repentance of my diſenting from the Romiſh Church But no ſooner had I looked into the conſequences of ſuch a thing but I took up my Teſtament which my brethren had given me, and had a deſire to rea ſome directions from God what to do; and the firſt
