The Professor's House
away days, to live some sort of life together and to
share good and bad fortune. They had not shared
together, for the reason that they were unevenly
matched. The young St. Peter who went to France
to try his luck, had a more active mind than the
twin he left behind in the Solomon Valley. After
his adoption into the Thierault household, he re-
membered that other boy very rarely, in moments of
home-sickness. After he met Lillian Ornsley, St.
Peter forgot that boy had ever lived.
But now that the vivid consciousness of an earlier state had come back to him, the Professor felt that life with this Kansas boy, little as there had been of it, was the realest of his lives, and that all the years between had been accidental and ordered from the outside. His career, his wife, his family, were not his life at all, but a chain of events which had happened to him. All these things had nothing to do with the person he was in the beginning.
The man he was now, the personality his friends knew, had begun to grow strong during adolescence, during the years when he was always consciously or unconsciously conjugating the verb "to love"-in society and solitude, with people, with books, with the sky and open country, in the lonesomeness of crowded city streets. reached its maturity. From that time to this, existence had been a catching at handholds. One thing led to another and one development brought When he met Lillian, it
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